Friday, November 2, 2012

Grateful For... This, Here, Now

You hear that sound??
No?
Good.

That silence.
That quiet accompanied by that regular, rythmic flashing green light.

I won't take that for granted again.
It's our breathing monitor telling me that Missi is sleeping soundly - but safely in there.

It has been over 24 hours since the last alarm sounded,
warning me that our little girl had not taken breath for a concerning length of time (yet again).

A whole day and night without an alarm.
Music to my ears (and heart rate).

Why does it take serious scares to pull me back into line?
(Is this why my children keep doing it to me???!!)

Why does it take a night in hospital witnessing the horrific problems
and heartache that others are shouldering to shift my sooky la la perspective?
Hee hee. Just keeping you on your toes, Mum!! :-)
I have so much to be thankful for.

Missi apparently has severe reflux
- and appears to take her immune response a little too far after immunisations.
But she is perfectly healthy and robust.

I miss my Mummy and immediate family a lot of the time.
But I still have amazing support from across the world and right here in my own little world.

My home is embarrassingly feral this week.
But we have somewhere familiar and comfortable for us to laugh, cuddle and lay our heads at night...

I am grateful for the week gone - as stressful and exhausting as it has been -
because it has shown me, once again, how much I have to give thanks for.

Tonight, I plan to revel in my hubby's company, be at peace with my choice to clean instead of cook
(or break my neck to do both) today, gaze lovingly at my cute kids and enjoy my sparkling
finally-back-from-the-jewellers wedding rings.
Before falling asleep by 8.30pm no doubt!!

This, here, now - it's pretty damn good.
Appreciate it.

Happy weekend.

Linking with Maxabella Loves' 52 Weeks of Grateful
Shar :-)

8 comments:

Jen R said...

Oh Shar, how scary for you glad Missi is ok, enjoy your evening and weekend xx

Kate @ Our Little Sins said...

Happy weekend!! Oooh shiny rings!!

Melissa Lawrence said...

Wishing you a peaceful sleep and a very boring, non-eventful weekend. Time to get your breath back.

Elisa {With Grace and Eve} said...

Oh Shar how damn scary! Glad all is wonderful now. Your little girl is so beautiful. Wishing you a relaxing calm week xxxx

Jane said...

Oh Sweetheart. Just catching up with your last 9 posts - yikes! Working backwards from the most recent so will catch up on what a hard time you've had. So sorry to hear that but relieved it's turned around. Sending you a huge ♥ tonight. J x

Mama of 2 boys said...

Oh just look at your babe Shar, she could light up the world with that smile :)
SO glad to hear all is back on track and there is an answer to your concerns. It is mind blowing to think of how tough things can be for some families isn't it? Really makes you appreciate the wonderful things in your life.
Hope you get a lovely long sleep tonight xo

Full Time Mum said...

Oh that must be so scary! I can't even imagine what that must feel like! My little girl had bad reflux too as a baby but she is 2.5 now and I am so glad we are over all that now! Luckily we never had any breathing issues though!

I know what you mean when seeing other parents struggling with so much worse and realising that you should be thankful to not be dealing with anyhting more serious!

All the best and I hope you will have no more scares! x

Amanda said...

You poor thing, what a scare. Remember to be kind to yourself. By something ready made for tea and ignore the housework while your little world gets back to normal xx