Friday, November 16, 2012

Grateful For... A Retreating Wave

It's a pretty cool feeling being me today!
I spy with my little eye .. Mummy in the mirror!
The wave of anxiety that rose up a couple of weeks ago 
is playing nice and retreating without too much fuss.

Not that I was entirely aware of the size of the wave knocking me about.

But I guess the whole 'baby not breathing' thing will tend do that to a mother.

As you know, this is what us Mums do - just keep on keeping on -
without the debrief or barely a moment of 'woah - that was scary/exhausting/traumatic'.

But while getting on with it, I've also been waiting with bated breath for the next crisis.

As usual, it's not until the tight shoulders, the restless sleep, the knotted stomach, the uneasiness...
have subsided that I really notice they were even there in the first place.

The end of this week has me breathing easier and deeper, standing straighter and smiling wider.
For that I'm so grateful.

Happy, happy weekend.

Linking with the '52 Weeks of Grateful' over at KIdspot.

Shar :-)

10 comments:

Elisa {With Grace and Eve} said...

I'm so glad you are feeling better and brighter! It was the scariest of moments you experienced!! May the lighter calmer feelings continue xx

Sonia LifeLoveandHiccups said...

I hope with all my heart that the tide goes the freaking hell out on that wave and the reason it was here in the first place. Thinking of you beautiful girl xx

Amanda @ mammajoy said...

It's so good when that feeling subsides. So happy to hear it :) Hope each day gets better and better.

Coal Valley View said...

SO glad to hear Shar - there is nothing worse than that feeling and not knowing when it will go away, even though the actual stress has gone. Hope you all have a great weekend and look at the little Missi smiling there in the cot - so cute :-) Mel x

Jen R said...

Fantastic news that 'wave' is on its way out to sea!! xx

Anonymous said...

On my, I am so glad that Missi is home from the hospital and that she is ok. I can't imagine going through that, or living life naturally after it! It would be very difficult to relax. I want to check my baby's breathing constantly and I've never had a scare like that. I hope that you never have one again.

Kylie @ Octavia and Vicky said...

On my, I am so glad that Missi is home from the hospital and that she is ok. I can't imagine going through that, or living life naturally after it! It would be very difficult to relax. I want to check my baby's breathing constantly and I've never had a scare like that. I hope that you never have one again.
Sorry - posted as anonymous last time, didn't mean to!

Mama of 2 boys said...

Oh yes, this sounds like me Shar, when things are good, I often get an air of uneasiness too... must be a female thing. So glad you were able to kick off the weekend feeling light and positive though.
Love that little pic of Missi, she looks like an absolute delight xo

Vicky Finch said...

Oh babe... The universe just keeps throwing stuff at you doesn't it? I haven't been reading much lately. Too caught up in my own head. I really hope that you have a support network around you to ease all of it. I'm glad to hear missi is home, but I can imagine that your anxiety is right at the edge. Even though you are feeling brighter, don't try to be superwoman ... She's a myth, and only exists in cartoons. Ask for help, as hard as it is to do. Love light and strength lovely xxx

Maxabella said...

Geez you're a mountain, Shar. You are just so darn amazing and strong and tall and big and... well, all those mountain-type things. And you never never give up. It's wonderful being you indeed. x