This week I have been given a little carrot to reach out for.
And it's made this bunny very happy indeed!
I have finally accepted that I work better with a deadline looming,
a list to conquer, a mission or some purpose to my existence, you know!
It's not that "surviving this" or "feed the children" or "get through the day"
aren't valid aims at times - but I need to feel that there's more than that to life.
This week I was offered one of those 'more than that's in my running.
In the form of an invitation to join some old running comrades in a team marathon event later in the year.
Who would have thought that such a simple conversation
(and some good natured old fashioned slagging/banter)
would have left me a little giddy and invigorated.
I've now got a goal to focus on when running and a reason (other than my mental health) to train.
Some external motivation (other than the jelly belly variety) to push the distance and speed.
I have a commitment to someone other than myself and the chocolate stash - and it feels good.
I look forward to this bit of accountability and to
reigniting the social side of running again in the coming months.
A few years ago, we won this event as a marathon relay team -
so there's an element of pressure too.
What if I let the team down?
What if they expect me to be as fast as I was pre-Missi?
What if Hubby has something on that day?
What if the baby keeps me up all night the night before the event?
What if, what if, what if...
What if I just stop overthinking and enjoy??
Be grateful that they thought of me and that I have a goal to work towards.
(And, man, do I need to do some work!)
Linking with the 52 Weeks of Grateful