Thursday, August 2, 2012

When A Pile Of Negatives Is Oh So Positive

For lack of a better term, we've dodged another bullet over here.

Magoo's test results have come back negative to a lot of scary stuff ... which is super positive.

We don't have answers regarding the the cause of his dodgy brain scans at this point.
But what we do have is assurance that it's not one of the feared syndromes or diseases that have kept my heart rate nice and high for weeks now.
We also have faith that regular scanning and monitoring will ensure that we're not ambushed by any nasty surprises in the near future.

I've cracked open a packet of sour Cola bottles in celebration* and may well crash on this here keyboard with relief once the sugar rush has subsided.

I can't even articulate how I feel this evening.

Thank you x 1 million +!
Overwhelmed with gratitude is a start  - gratitude both for the news we received today and the amazing people we are lucky enough to be surrounded by. How do you even begin to express to people how damn fabulous they are?

Optimistic and energised about the coming weeks is another wave of emotion.
As much as I planny-plan-plan, I have only allowed myself to view the next weeks and months logistically really. The possibility of devastation this afternoon and of the unknown held me back. Now, I feel a surge of genuine, unrestrained excitement about our plans (and all of the unplanned!) in the coming weeks.

Joyful, mushy, tremendously relieved, exhausted, relaxed....

I also feel a touch of guilt. Guilt that I get to be so lucky, lucky, lucky. Guilt that I've caused stress and worry for people in our lives. Guilt that the next patient behind us today was the embodiment of what we have been spared from - and I couldn't look her Mum in the eye as I walked my gorgeous, healthy boy past her wheelchair.

Anyway, enough about me, me, me.
Although, I'd love you to have a drink for me tonight.
How are YOU?

Shar :-)

*Apologies to my poor bubby girl for today's diet of adrenalin, cortisol and sugar

16 comments:

sascedar said...

what a rollercoaster! lucky, lucky boy. so relieved for you, the thought of the other mumma breaks my heart. but let the guilt go. enjoy tonight's sleep :)sarah

MultipleMum said...

Squeeeeee!!!

Vicky said...

Such wonderful news to read tonight. X

Elisa {with grace and eve} said...

Fantastic news!! A big smile on my facefor you! You are so strong Shar! xx

Maryandlil said...

so glad everything is okay. It is awful knowing that there is something wrong with your children xx

Mama of 2 boys said...

And breeeeeeeeeathe! Such a relief Shar, I am stoked for you all tonight. Best news. Now, you enjoy your lovely little family and all of the magic that the next few months will bring. Cute little Magoo, those flowers are bigger than him ;) xoxo

momto8blog said...

good for you!! One of my sons was very very ill as a baby...I felt all those things you felt as he got better...and that paved the way to our whole families conversion back to our faith. Plus..made me a better person!! i know what it feels like to be scared and overwhelmed...so i try and help others who are in that situation...I owe, I owe...
i am your newest follower..pls follow back if you can.

Tamsyn said...

I'm crying reading this Shar, I am so overwhelmed and relieved and ecstatic for you. Such good news!! xx

Kate Sins said...

Oh my goodness, YAY! I'm so glad for you that it's all looking good. Umm, but I may have snorted when you mentioned sour coke bottles. Ick, but I guess each to their own!!

Do away with that guilt.

Biggest hugs, I can't stop smiling.xxxx

Maxabella said...

Oh thank bloody god for that, Shar! Still no answer, but seeming so much more positive. I will definitely have a drink or two in Magoo's honour this evening. Bless. x

Jane said...

Oh Shar, I'm just catching up on your news. Thank God. I am so thrilled to hear those nasties have been eliminated as causes. I'm still crossing fingers and toes for you in Hobart that you can get to the bottom of it all very soon. J x

Miss Mandy said...

So happy to read this, a giant step in the right direction.

Teresa said...

Shar, you might of heared the sigh of relief I just let out from all the way over here in Brisvegas. Have been thinking of you and Magoo xox

Sonia LifeLoveandHiccups said...

Oh Thank God for that. I am always to scared to ask and I hold my breath everytime I play catch up on your posts for the week in the hope that nothing bad appears. I am so relieved for you hun and for little Magoo xx

Farmers Wifey said...

One step at a time, and it's in the right direction....xox

Cherie @ raising master Max said...

Gosh,

My heart is in my stomach FOR you!

What a relief!

I can't even imagine ...

So much love to you, & your magoo, & your sugar rush baby girl :)

xx