I can't go a day without overthinking.
We'd be here all day.
I would love to know what it feels like to -
- go to a 'thing' and not lie awake after hoping that so-and-so wasn't offended when I said such-and-such because I didn't think before I opened my mouth;
- go to sleep without the aid of a book to help me tune out my own irritating, incessant thoughts;
- hear or read a complaint / group email and not immediately assume it must be directed at me;
- notice a missed call from an unknown number and not wreck my head with the possibilities;
- make a big purchase and not need 101 justifications to convince myself it was reasonable / necessary / worthy;
- not hear from Hubby as promised and barely notice;
- not plan every outing / event / chore in minute detail and just turn up - at an inappropriate time and empty handed even :-0
But then could I live with her?
That carefree, fearless, unaware chick?
(Bet Hubby would love to try!)
Yes, overthinking is dangerous and leads to excessive worry, self criticism, stress, copious lists, pointless preparation for things that never eventuate, ridiculous medical diagnoses...
However, the more I overthink about it, overthinking also equates to thoughtfulness, consideration of others, empathy.
Those qualities that I absolutely treasure in the beautiful people I am lucky enough to have around me.
Apparently, Charlie Chaplin said,
"Go as far as you can see. When you get there you will see further."
I like his advice, I really do. I just think maybe I have super long distance vision?
Of course, the future is clearer as you get closer to it.
Of course I know that there are a million and one variables that will undoubtedly change between now and whenever I am thinking about.
But I can't help it.
No matter how much I think about it.
What do you think?